Buena Mano
"Death is a part of life. It is inevitable. All good things must come to an end"
Everytime I encounter a group or become a part of a group, I have this wierd thinking that would maybe freak others out. Since I was in Highschool, I would always think, "sino kaya ang buena mano sa amin?". Out of 214 that graduated in my batch in highschool, who would be the first one to bite the dust? (Well, I already got the answer, already two of us have died since graduation). Who among my group of friends in HighSchool would die first? Who in our batch in Comp Sci would be first to die? Who in the original S15 section would die first? Who in CS-ST would die first? Who among our team at work (Apollo & Metavante) would die first? Who among in my interact club would die first? Who among in my rotaract club would die first? Who among on my Leo Club would die first? Who among my fellow ADU would die first? Who among in my Toast masters club would die first? Who among my parents would die first? who among my grandparents would die first? Who among my cousins would die first? would I outlive my brother or would he outlive me?
Statistics shows that 65 is the average age of a human person. That means that 42 years from now (year 2046 - 2047), half of my fellow highschool mates would be dead. Maybe we cannot feel death approaching us from my (our) age but I bet the you would feel the same way when we are around 10 to 15 years from our death year, when the number of our batchmates dying would grow bigger and bigger (2031-2036).
Thoughts of death could be scary. Death has long lingered in my thoughts since I was in elementary. Maybe this is just a way for me to overcome my fear of death. Who knows what lies beyond death. No one has ever come back from the dead which could tell us what lies beyond (do not mention bullshits that others have experienced life after death. I just don't believe them. It's just the reaction of the brain when it experiences lack of oxygen.)
I long wondered how would I die. If I would die (of course I would, co'z I'm alive) I think that if not of a heart attack, I would die of brain cancer. Heart attack, if I do not change my way of eating and living. And brain cancer, because of staring hours upon hours on my computer everyday of my life (if not watching TV). Unless I die of an accident, I bet these two would be the most lucky candidate. Of course, this is not what I wish to die. If I would be given to chose the way that I die, I would prefer falling (or rather jumping) out of an airborne airplane and falling to solid concrete head first. I always wonder if it would hurt. I remember my teacher in highschool saying that when people die, a second before death, the soul would leave the body so that he/she would not feel the pain. "God loves us that much that he would send his angels to fetch our spirit a moment before death." I wanted to prove her wrong. And one way to find out is to put my experiment to action. Too bad I cannot tell you guys, if I ever had a chance to die the way I wanted to die, if it would hurt or not.
Please, don't be so depressed by my thoughts. For all you know, maybe, you too might be the next to be the lucky "Buena Mano".
Everytime I encounter a group or become a part of a group, I have this wierd thinking that would maybe freak others out. Since I was in Highschool, I would always think, "sino kaya ang buena mano sa amin?". Out of 214 that graduated in my batch in highschool, who would be the first one to bite the dust? (Well, I already got the answer, already two of us have died since graduation). Who among my group of friends in HighSchool would die first? Who in our batch in Comp Sci would be first to die? Who in the original S15 section would die first? Who in CS-ST would die first? Who among our team at work (Apollo & Metavante) would die first? Who among in my interact club would die first? Who among in my rotaract club would die first? Who among on my Leo Club would die first? Who among my fellow ADU would die first? Who among in my Toast masters club would die first? Who among my parents would die first? who among my grandparents would die first? Who among my cousins would die first? would I outlive my brother or would he outlive me?
Statistics shows that 65 is the average age of a human person. That means that 42 years from now (year 2046 - 2047), half of my fellow highschool mates would be dead. Maybe we cannot feel death approaching us from my (our) age but I bet the you would feel the same way when we are around 10 to 15 years from our death year, when the number of our batchmates dying would grow bigger and bigger (2031-2036).
Thoughts of death could be scary. Death has long lingered in my thoughts since I was in elementary. Maybe this is just a way for me to overcome my fear of death. Who knows what lies beyond death. No one has ever come back from the dead which could tell us what lies beyond (do not mention bullshits that others have experienced life after death. I just don't believe them. It's just the reaction of the brain when it experiences lack of oxygen.)
I long wondered how would I die. If I would die (of course I would, co'z I'm alive) I think that if not of a heart attack, I would die of brain cancer. Heart attack, if I do not change my way of eating and living. And brain cancer, because of staring hours upon hours on my computer everyday of my life (if not watching TV). Unless I die of an accident, I bet these two would be the most lucky candidate. Of course, this is not what I wish to die. If I would be given to chose the way that I die, I would prefer falling (or rather jumping) out of an airborne airplane and falling to solid concrete head first. I always wonder if it would hurt. I remember my teacher in highschool saying that when people die, a second before death, the soul would leave the body so that he/she would not feel the pain. "God loves us that much that he would send his angels to fetch our spirit a moment before death." I wanted to prove her wrong. And one way to find out is to put my experiment to action. Too bad I cannot tell you guys, if I ever had a chance to die the way I wanted to die, if it would hurt or not.
Please, don't be so depressed by my thoughts. For all you know, maybe, you too might be the next to be the lucky "Buena Mano".
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